8 posts tagged “personal insights”
This morning my mom asked me why I looked so sad, well I couldn't answer. Was it that obvious? Maybe finally they've noticed my puffy eyes. It was wet pillows again for me last night. Two nights ago, my boyfriend decided not to go out with me anymore. Our relationship was complicated and I can understand why he had to do it. We've been down this road before and it's nothing new. It was still the same cultural issue. There was nothing I could do about it. I could choose to fight for our love but I don't want to fight for it alone. Well, that was it, it was over. I feel so empty and so sad. Everything I see around me, triggers a memory and it never fails to bring tears back to my eyes. I know I'll be ok and I'll get over this, but for now I'm still wallowing in the pain and the loss. I am going through the phase when I dread going to bed at night because I couldn't sleep and getting my butt out of bed to go through my day. I'm afraid the sadness is really taking over.
For one thing though, I am thankful. Thankful that he stayed with me for one year and a half, even though there were a lot of risks involved. I admit I wasn't ready to say goodbye and I had hoped that we had a future. This relationship made me grow as a person and it made me have a more mature outlook in life. I am grateful that he gave us a chance, brief as it is, and that is something that I will cherish for a lifetime. I wish that I didn't fail to make him feel how much I loved him when he was with me and how happy he used to make me. I hope he can now sleep soundly at night. As for me, for the time being, wet pillows will be my comfort.
I checked out the product link and yeah they sell it at Swell. The slippers are designed in a way that they have a small vacuum sealed space on the heel, this is where you store your liquid drink. I mean no offense to the designer or design team who cooked this idea up but I really hope they put their creative efforts to much more important use.
For now all they have are slippers for men, they don't have any designs out yet for the ladies. But would you seriously want one?
Last week was probably the most hectic schedule I had to tackle for my work as a senior designer in a firm and as a freelance designer, or so I thought. Yesterday I've been given deadlines for next week and boy I have to achieve the impossible for this one. I have 3 deadlines, all for different projects and all with major requirements. To top it off, I still have a whopper of a load for my freelance project. Gosh. This is bad. I have to spend very late hours staying up trying to finish them. It's already Thursday and I'm nowhere finished with even one. I can't wait for next week when all this is over. Maybe then I can get a vacation or a break. Maybe...
It's now official, come midnight I will start a new chapter of my life. t's something that has been on the back of my head for a while now and it's been brewing for quite some time. When I wake up tomorrow, it'll be the start of a new me. Well not really that different from who I am but hopefully a much better and improved one. I have delayed doing it and well I think it's the right time for me to finally take the big jump. Well, here's a toast to my new life. Cheers!
I went to the beach last weekend at Virgin Beach Resort located at Laiya, San Juan, Batangas. It was the break from work that I needed. The sand was not as white as Boracay's and not as fine but it was nice anyway. There weren't as much people there as I previously expected considering it was the height of summer season, maybe because the resort had such steep rates. If you were looking for a place where you need peace and quiet, I'd definitely recommend this beach. It would be nice just to be there with your special someone too because you'll get to spend quality time with each other but in my case, I was there with my friends. I had fun though. There was no night life there. The resort had policies on making the place as quiet as possible (no karaokes, no loud noises). We spent the night cooped up in a parasol talking about life, love and our work related frustrations.
I have such fond memories from this trip...looking forward to the next one.
I feel like I'm living a double life, one as a designer for my boss's firm and one as my own boss for my freelance ventures. I do get tired and I do need a break.
Deadlines keep popping up. I'm really looking forward to going to the beach by the end of the week. Maybe there I can get some much needed R&R.
Ho-humm. I'm getting sleepy. Time to refill my coffee cup again.
