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Last Friday, my officemates and my bosses decided to take me out to a movie because they wanted to cheer
me up. I was touched. Even though there was nothing I wanted more than to curl up on my bed and cry, I gave in. We watched Indiana Jones. I really didn't enjoy the movie because although it was action-packed, the plot wasn't that good and I found the ending a little bit corny. Plus maybe it was because I wasn't really paying attention and my mind was wandering elsewhere. It's been almost a week now and I'm just trying to get through each day. I try to forget when I'm at work but it must be my eyes that betray me, there's a sadness in them that no amount of makeup can conceal. It's so easy to act that everything's ok... that I'm ok but I'm trying to be strong and I know I'll be able to find the strength to move on. At dinner after the movie, I had eggs Benedict. It was the first real meal I had. I have been skipping meals, I know it's a big no-no. I can't seem to get my appetite back yet. The talk during dinner lightened up my mood and for a moment I was back to my old self again.
I had constant communication with him during the week, sometimes he called and sometimes we chatted. I am
glad that we can still maintain the friendship. I know it's never going to be the same again but I value what we still have. It was great hearing from him. I think that he's happy. I do miss him a lot. I miss us. But destiny chose to lead us to a different path and I am beginning to accept that. I still have sleepless nights and I still dread getting up from my bed but each day brings me toward the day that I'll finally feel better and that's something I want to look forward to.
